Sad day on the farm...

I am so so sad right now, I can't even express how sad I am. As you may know, we finally had some barn kittens at our house and they were doing so well. We had our horrible tragic morning earlier this last spring when we found that something had killed our former litter. Well, both our mama cats had litters and they were really good sweet, healthy kittens. They were sweet, they hunted, they played with Bristol, and they were all really cute too. 

Well, today I was in charge of taking meals to the guys in the fields, and I had noticed that some of the kittens were playing in the wheel wells of my tires on my car earlier today, but didn't think anything of it when I left to run the food.  On the way home from the field, I saw a dead kitten in the road. And then another. And then another just less than a mile from our house that was still alive. Needless to say at this point I am not even really able to drive because I am crying so hard. The one I found that was still alive was barely alive...so I called Seth. He is an amazing husband and patient man for dealing with me and putting that poor kitten out of its misery. Trust me, there was no saving it. I'm a vet tech, I would've tried if I could have. 

Then I got home and was praying and hoping that my favorite kitten was still alive, because I had not seen it on my way home. I can't find it anywhere. We only have one kitten left and the two mama cats. To make matters worse, the mama cats keep meowing really loud and crying and I swear they are saying "kitten killer!" to me. :(

I'm so stinking sad. I realize that this may seem really dumb, because farm cats come and go and there a lot worse things going on in our world right now. I just felt the need to pay tribute to those sweet little kittens.  Pretty sure Seth is in the other room currently questioning my sanity since I have been wallering around in my robe and slippers in the barn lot calling "kitty? kitty?" and offering "I'm sorry" cat treats to the momma cats even though I know it won't make up for their loss.

Ugh, hopefully Tony Stewart the tom cat will come seduce the mammas once more.